Today… I broke up with my boyfriend. I said goodbye to him.
I have been under medical treatment and he came down with an illness, too. We should have support each other but only I could was thinking of myself, so could he.
To tell you the truth, we haven’t seen each other much for two years. Talked on the phone quick a few. That was because related to his job but also his will. I couldn’t’ stand with this anymore… I told him to wait until he recover from his illness… No phone call, even not answering my call. I wanted to see him but not let me. He didn’t come to see me either. I wanted to support him but not let me. Having a date is outrageous. I thought “Is he my boyfriend? Are we lovers?” I really wanted to wait him even this situation, even having a hard time after two years.
But! He has been lying to me. It was very important thing. I was sooooooo shocked on that. It made me to leave from him.
Being with him three and half years. I really loved him. Wanted to get married. Wanted to be with him until we get old. My wish will not be fulfilled anymore. My small dream…
I am going to concentrate on treating my illness from now on. It takes a time until the time being with him becomes a good memories though. I will not look at my past, just looking at my future!!!
T-chan, thank you so much for everything. I wish you get better. Good bye…